I am Thine Oh Lord

From ages of old, He has loved me.
Who am I to question His wisdom?
Who am I to question my purpose?
Who am I to question God's plan?
Who am I Lord. Who am i?

With every new life that blesses the Earth,
Angels dance with joy in Heaven, i know.
Lord, how much more would they have danced
When the heard that you were born into this world?
Oh, i can hear the music, it's ringing in my heart.
Lord, every inch of my body, knows that you are Lord.
Lord, everything that i have is because of You.
Lord, humble me.
What the world has to give, does not bring me joy,
But a second in Your presence is like a million treasures won.
A million lamps lit is nothing compared
To the light that shines within me.
The light that saved me.

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas Everyone!!

May your Christmas be filled with joy and thankfullness.
God bless.

(Just made this in paint :)) 

Let me introduce my galiant protector, my armed monster, my ferocious, trained drool shooter. (:P)

Name:Rocky
Breed: Doberman
Please note: Looks are deceptive cos he's one sweet dog!
Licks almost too much and leaves me messy and grumpy! ha ha.
Weakness: Food and me :) and dad and bro and sis and mum.
He's one spoilt dog :) pampered all his life! By that i dont mean that he weras a cute dress or has a diamond collar but yea, he's loved a lot.

Most affectionately called: Chooey
Loves: To moan and make a fuss and get attention
Hates: Even an ant that comes in our way. He'll even bark at an insect miles away!! 

Lemony loo

Ah yes. I needed some colour out here! And i wanted to go all the way and get lemony :) . An inspiration from a friend. Someone who we lovingly call "chechi", "chena", "aunty".

Makes me think about college and all the fun times we have. Despite the tremendous amount of preparation that our most endearing SS sir puts into his classes, well there has to be someone who cracks us up every time. Yes, you sir.

The day is droning and sandheep's in his 13th dream.
I cant supress my laughter at the sight of him in pensive thought.
Saranya's falling on her desk next to me.
I'm looking at the board, with other things in mind.
"Chena" hears "back track" as "back scratch". God bless.

Lo and Behold... the moment arises.
Mr SS sir says, "Students, do you know how to find the 1's compliment of the 1's compliment sum of a set of numbers?"
Like we could care less.

But no.. he has to awaken us!!
GREAT IDEA.
"Looks like all of you 'll are sleeping!"
Well surprise surprise!

So he writes on the board,
"Once compliment of the Once compliment sum of.."

Ah, yes. We're awake all right!
HA HA HA HA.
I'm trying hard not to make funny noises while laughing while mirudhula almost dies with laughter.
The last row cant control either. HELP!
You know it's rude to laugh AT SOMEONE'S FACE!!!
Man... And the Guy didnt even stop us!! Just looked at us! And we looked back.
And yes, Sandheep woke up.

Turns out that day evening he told our rep that girls and guys shouldnt sit together. Like that had anything to do with it.

And the man finally got it! God bless!

Firangi craze-- a whacky point of view (a shot at dramatisation)

why the "firangi"craze?
I've always wanted to wear a long and elegent dress that flows down to your toes and narrates a story of its own with its lush colour and intriguing cut.You know, with the low back,low neck, low everything! Well tough luck!! ha ha.. You are indeed the nice, decent, well bred, religious Indian girl! Imagine the culture shock and the rift it might cause! A catastrophy of sorts! Good Lord! Ah well, there's always the mini skirt and the unbelievably short non-shirt. "WHAT??? Are you crazy?? Are you out of your mind? Do you have some sense??" is what i'll probably hear. Well, everyone is crazy in some whacky way. It's only how one perceives it. It's standard procedure in India to break the rules, so why the sudden mindset of scrutinizing a woman's clothing? I mean, does the world's existence depend on it? I think not.
In denfence of the 1 billion Indians (minus the whacky Indian girls)--Why the sudden infactuation with firangi style and fashion? A girl in a village in India with a "crazy" idea of style will indeed have to face the music from her parents after she's been humiliated by being gaped at by a bunch of jobless mongers with no apparent sense of decency. But you know what, if i wore a sari in another part of the world, where they have'nt had one glimpse of Indian clothing, i'd probably be stared at for quite some time too!
The sari is actally a very sensuous piece of garment. In certain places its outrageous for a woman to "expose" her mid-section. Um.. why is that? So.... what they're saying is that, their great great great great(and a lot more greats) grandmother, the first woman on earth was the most indecent and vulgar woman on earth. WOW.Now that is silly.
Maybe we're just tagging it.. "The firagi craze"I mean, anything new is exciting and hence the sudden craze. In a country like India, its bound to spread like wildfire. What's the crime in being adventureous and trying out a new thing or two?
I think restriction creates a spirit in you that makes you crave for something more. I mean, take a bollywood film. Guy meets girl, they fall in love, bla bla end of story. The much awaited kiss is left to our imagination. Because,its an outrage in India.Hush. No talking about love and mushy stuff. Why the restriction? Seems to me, the whole of India is love crazy because of the restriction. hmmm. Quite a thought. As for me, i remain the nice, decent, well bred, religious Indian girl. There are more important things on earth to fight over.

The prequel- My horse whisperer

She walked towards him in defeat,
As though it was their fate, to meet;
He gently stroked her dusky mane,
He seemed to ease her of her pain.

He whispered songs of long ago,
He spoke of mountains i adore.
Oh, what longing i have in me!
To unbind myself and be free.

I'd chase the wind till i lose my breath,
I'd ride in the rain till i'm soaking wet,
I'd watch the creation of a new day,
I'd still be there to watch it slowly sink away.

His voice i hear amidst the pouring rain,
Softer than the light patter on my face,
Calling out to me not to stray,
My horse whisperer, my only way.

Right now i'm into quite a few things! At one point in your life you have to do this

Listen to:
1. What a wonderful world-Louis Armstrong

(George Weiss / Bob Thiele)

I see trees of green, red roses too
I see them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world
I see skies of blue and clouds of white
The bright blessed day, the dark sacred night
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world

The colours of the rainbow, so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people going by
I see friends shakin' hands, sayin' "How do you do?"
They're really saying "I love you"
I hear babies cryin', I watch them grow
They'll learn much more than I'll ever know
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world
Yes, I think to myself, what a wonderful world
Oh yeah

Its the charm of the simple things in life that i'm still blown away by and i am yet to understand to hidden complexity in them.

2. Kiss from a rose-Seal

Another one of my favouraites. Absolutely beautiful lyrics and a very addictive song might i add! yea, i've heard the song about a zillion times and i'm not remotely bored of it as yet!

3. Zombie-Cranberries

There's something about this song that's so enigmatic and magnetic. A downright head banger and 5.12 minutes of gothic-ness.
A song to sing for kicks. You will not be disappointed. One bit.


To watch:
1. The Horse whisperer- The thing is i never expected anything but i got much more than i expected after watching it.

2. Finding Forrester- For all you aspiring writers, this is the movie to watch.

We all live on this Earth for a reason. There is someone out there who's life is waiting for you to be in it. In whatever small way, for whatever small reason you are indeed blessed to be there. I've always wondered about life. I've pondered about the why's and when's and how's a good number of times. And i've come to understand that even though i dont see it in the near future, God sees it real clear and he's got a plan. And it's my duty to trust and obey. Living by faith is what takes you to places you've never dreamt of, to opportunities you never thought yourself worthy of, to experiences you never thought you could live through. And thats the beauty of life.

My horse whisperer...

I'm running, running, my swift body moves across,
My hooves make a depression on the dark desert sand.
I'm reaching for the horizon where things are anew,
Across the red desert sand I ride towards you.

I'm thinking, i'm feeling like a whole new being;
I'm filled with life with a whole new meaning.
My life is saved, yes i'm free again,
My horse whisperer, my saviour, my friend.

A song fills my mouth,a voice so clear,
What you've given me, is oh, so dear.
Even my might and grace can never surpass
The burning spirit in me so vast.

Oh, I could sing of all my battles won
My peaceful nights watching the setting sun.
When i carried you across hills and streams,
But you carried me beyond my very dreams!

Dark dangers i might come to see
But i will fight the storm until they flee
For i know, far across the distance,
Across the red desert sand
My horse whisperer, will guide me home.

-annette
i absoltely loved the movie.

Dont honey me..

When the day is right,
And fate calls,
When darkness stumbles upon light,
Dont honey me.

When confusion meets you,
And takes you by the hand,
When lies seem so true,
Dont honey me.

When life brings you high,
And you're standing tall,
When pride brings a sigh,
Dont honey me.

When Snow White meets her happy ending,
She smiles a brilliant smile,
Stars, with joy, start descending,
Dont honey me.

It takes a lot of grey matter to bring down mine,
But cant you see,i've got God with me,
Somewhere between the dotted line,
Dont honey me.

Folly is what defies the mind,
And tries to make you succumb your all,
But you cannot lose what you've had before,
Dont honey me.

"All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players"
Play your part, Be yourself-
Dont honey me.

God's own country

Kerala. I have been to kerala quite a few times and every time i come back home from my short vacation i long to have spent more time there. I took this picture when i went to kerala in june. I have these 'moments' when i totally zone out or rather zone into another world where nature unfolds her life to me. Every leaf has a story to tell and i find myself lost in thought every time.

The moment i saw this 'hole in the wall' i just knew there was something on the other side that i had to see for myself.
Beauty beyond my understanding. Thats what it is. 

Wake up Lord, within me

Wake up, Lord, i know You're within me,
I want to feel Your presence, whole and completely.
The world looks down on me, but i've got You by my side,
Under Your wings i'm prepared for life's ride.

Take me Lord, high above in life,
Teach me Lord, to live through the strife.
The light of Your presence is shining like a star,
I can now live through any danger, any scar.

When i'm being swallowed by my fears,
My Lord is fighting away my tears..
When i'm not strong enough to hold myself,
My Lord, puts me back on the right shelf.

I feel stronger by just knowing you,
Day by day, You guide me through..
I can't see where my life will lead me,
But my faith in You has set me free.

No more worries, no more misery,
I live for you Lord,yes, completely.
I thank you Lord for everything that you've given,
Yes, everything that i do, is now God-driven.

Oh, I tell you, the ride is heavenly,
With the clouds and the wind blowing approvingly.
I smile with my heart,oh, it feels so light,
I know deep within, everything's alright.

I ride with my Lord everyday,
Wake up Lord, within me, I say.

Divided thoughts..

At first i laughed at the sarcasm portrayed,
Later, at my casual acceptance of the matter i was ashamed,
Now i realise i'm not the one who's dismayed...
Who is?

Mind of an anti-reservationist-->

Why God,are we divided when we are born?
Why God, are some looked upon with scorn?

At 3, i never cared whether my friends were OBC
With open arms i would have let them come to me.

At 18, i still feel the same..
Still there seems to be a nagging pain.
With my future on the line,
How can i not stand for what's mine?
I mean,i worked for it,i made everyone proud..
But yet,i did not make it through the crowd.
I've tagged myself as a failure
I'm lost in insecurity,depression and fear.
I thought i could make it big one day,
Now all my hopes are washed away..
After my breakdown,will there be a seat reserved for me?
For the mentally unstable,physically unwell & ill emotionally?
I'm so confused & i dont have the strength to fight,
Let the government do whatever they might!
Afterall someone loses out and it might as well be me,
I'm thinking-maybe this was'nt meant to be.
I know that i've had the best education i can ever get,
I know someone else's dreams of studying are now being met.
I'll move on,having faith in my education,
I' ll learn a new task without trepidation.
All i want to say is that all this concern for the OBC
is just making it convenient for them,according to me.
I can see that my loss is someone else's gain,
I guess i'll just become stronger after all the pain
I pray that God guides me through..
One day i'll rise up and be among you..

Mind of a pro-reservationist--

At 3,i was an OBC
At 18, i still am completely
I never had the platform to shine
How can i achieve something that was'nt regarded mine?
I am tagged from day 1
Limited for no reason under the sun..
I cant believe that it has to end this way,
For some-so that i can make my day.
You have no idea how much hope you've instilled in me.
I can even see myself earning for my family..
Although i feel that stealing your dream is a crime,
I'm not going to waste a second of my time.
I promise that i 'll work harder than you ever did,
I promise to educate every OBC kid
I will make sure that my caste is not an excuse
For my kids to take advantage of, and misuse.
I know
it must have been very tough for you,
I respect your anger,i really do.
I hope we will get this resolved one day,
For that to happen all i can say
Is that you have given me a future,a life, a dream..
Both of us together can make a good team.

Everyone needs a helping hand,
Something i have learnt to understand.

Reservation for OBC?

I was reading this magazine and i came across this slogan-
I hope you know about the government reserving 27 % seats for the OBC..or more!

"Dear pro-reservationists,politicians,police...
Kabhi na kabhi you have to come to us.
We have RESERVED the bluntest knives and the thickest needles for you."

A slogan that brings out the ugliness of anger.

Fire in her eyes..

Inspired by the photograph taken by my friend sharadha

She's an angel, calling out to me,
She's your tomorrow,waiting to be..
She told me my eyes can never hide
The things that i really feel inside..

She told me life will be a blur
If you close your heart and choose to fear..
She said she's seen times of peace,
Times of compassion, love and ease.

She says those times are passing by,
The things she sees, makes her cry.
She's seeing times when there is no care,
She's seeing things she cannot bear..

She tries to hide all the abuse,
Her eyes give it away,there's nothing left to choose..
She forgets to love, she doesnt wanna cry,
She doesnt wanna just let it go by..


She's stronger than ever, she's got reason to be,
But still, you can feel her pain, her deep misery,
Through her eyes its all too plain,
Nothing can remove that deep dark stain..
She deserves a lot more than this,
She deserves a world of infinite bliss..

After all that she's been through.....
She still brings a smile when she's around you.

Life has brought fire in her eyes,
You've got to respect the fire in her eyes.

Thinking of you..

Falling asleep on an average day,
I'm reminded of you in every way...
My heart's telling me to smile,
To quit being in denial..

Of all the words that you have said,
I wanna hear you breathe instead..
I wanna see it in your eyes,
I wanna make me realise,

Love is unpredictable and meant to reveal,
All these emotions that i feel.

WORDS can heal

Inspired by a photograph taken by Akash

Your world seems to be so clear,
You seem to live in no fear,
But inside you 're so insecure..
How much more can you endure??

Life is 'nt all about covering up,
Of being afraid and shuting up.
Its not about how long you can hold on
Its about knowing how to carry on..

Sometimes you need to let yourself fall,
There could be a whole new world beneath it all..
WORDS can open up your mind
It'll reveal what you wanted to find

Then you'll see the LIGHT you never saw before
And you'll understand what you' ve been living for..
And that day you'll make your own mark
There will be no more of DARK

Everyone has a reason to live,
We' re born to love, forget and forgive.
We' re here to find our missing link
The reason for which we' ll never sink.
That something or someone will teach you to love again,
That its ok to feel the pain...

Life brings out rebellions in us,
But is it really worth all the fuss??
If you think what you're doing is wrong,
WHAT are you waiting for so long??
If you 're worried about what people will think,
Atleast do it for your missing link
'Cos you dont need to go astray
Just 'cos people dont think your way

You have a persona of your own
No one is like you, you have the first turn.
So all you have to do is uncover yourself
And take full control of your life.

Time freeze

Time goes by and by,
Familiarity touches you and i,
Behind high walls i do hide,
And with you i fail to confide.
Our paths meet just by fate,
Time stops and tends to wait,
There's a need to share, care and protect,
Soul to soul we connect,
Nothing surpasses this time freeze
When millions of seconds of time release...
Words seem to never come out,
Only you know what i'm thinking about.
At the crossroad, you look at me,
I look at you but i'm afraid to see,
Will you go left or will you go right,
Will you go forward and hold me tight...
Tell me the world with your heart beat,
Only with you i feel complete..

Devil Boss Little

This poem is about a criminal(Devil Boss Little) who was a great boss but not a leader... he made all the wrong choices.. did 'nt realise the worth of life until it was too late... we all have something t learn from this..(everything in the poem is made up and is not real in any way)-annette

Mr. Boss was firm and strong,
According to him, he did nothing wrong,
He shot some men and stabbed the rest,
Drank the night at his best,
All for fame, power and pelf,
All for money,money and self.
He was the boss of him, you and me,
But it was too late for him to see
That cops were friends of the society.
Well all is lost, even his wife,What 's the use of living a life?
They say he is promised the electric chair,
And he wonders if life was ever fair..
Where he had made the first flaw,
The first time he broke the law.
His soul never did find peace..
But victims of his crime were at last at ease.
He never was a leader, always a boss.
He made the wrong choices and all for loss.
So are you a leader or a boss?
Will you wither with time or gather like moss?
Is 'nt life for living and not for death?
For leading others out of the net?
So choose the right thing to do..
And find the right leader in you..

Nature's will

The gushing wind, the dancing seas,
The groaning earth, the gentle breeze,
The crying clouds, the dark blue mounds,
The setting sun, the beauty won,
The soaring trees, for that one piece
Of soothing ease..

But nature burns..
And beauty turns,

To misty ash, but still
It's Nature 's Will,
With a little help,From personified skill.

-annette
by personified skill i mean human skill...that is.. how man is also responsible indirectly for the destruction of nature..by deforestation, pollution.If we are good t nature and it will be good t us... enjoy nature... it has a lot t offer. There 's beauty everywhere... take a moment t realise that.

WAr and ?

this is something i came up with a year back i think.... just my thoughts

Staying awake at night i think
Of thoughts that pestered my mind all day long
Why everything always ends up in war..
Why dont people understand that its wrong??
How many deaths must we bear
To realise that there are no more lives to spare??
Surrounding each nation,each race, each life,
Why is there so much of strife?
With people dying everywhere
Why is it that people just dont care?
When will i see life so clear?
When will i hav no reason to fear?
Does God have no say in this?
How can we in the midst of war, miss
His grace and mercy, His love supreme?
His permission to fulfil our dream?
All we can do is pray for peace...
For all the hatred to slowly cease..

Showers of love..

I stretch out my arms and close my eyes,
I tilt my head towards the moonlit skies,
I feel raindrops falling down on me,
I open my eyes and that 's all i see.
Beauty personified, from heaven above,
Angels cry out showers of love.
The moment it touches me i feel alive,
I feel that this is all i need to survive..
It brings a smile on my face,
And evokes an emotion that's hard to erase.
So sublte and yet so strong,
Willing to fall down, all along.

Intoxicated

Down the dark, dark alley, i fall on my knees,
My life's zeroed to nothing, How did it suddenly cease..
I see images of long,long,long before,
Intoxication. Yeah. I'm craving for more.
I hear voices calling,it's all in a blur,
And i'm falling, falling, falling on dirt.
Got my emotions on high, but none that i can see,
It's all in my head, like it was meant to be.
The only thing alive is craving for peace..
That's my heart, and i'm begging it " please,
I feel confusion,delusion,keep me from losin,
My mind, my soul, I feel my life's on hold.
I dont want this frustrating life..
Why did i not see through all of his lies?
Look where it got me..now i realise,
That i should look twice for defying eyes."

Forgot my password!

hey.. um..so it had been a while since i had posted anything on my blog 'Time freeze'
not surprising that i forgot my passworh ha ha!No fear...:) so i created this one!