War of the mind

Moonrise

2008-11-07T12:10:00.000+05:30

MOON RISE

Have you seen the moon rise?
A-glittering in the sky.
I wonder who she's looking at,
I know I'd melt like chocolat..
I watch the translucent grey clouds sail,
But she hides behind their misty veil.
She hushes my heart in the blue of the night
She brings awe to every heart tonight.
Oh! Shine on me your wondrous peace
Your light doeth, my heart appease
The world below is fast asleep,
You alone our secrets keep
I dream away this blissful night.
Shine on me, Oh glorious light!

Atoms in an excited state emit energy

2008-10-27T18:34:00.004+05:30

Yea, So being the last minute dimwit that I am, its no surprise when I end up packing my bag to go someplace approximately 20 minutes before I have to leave. You know... to keep my life exciting,thats all. ;) Who's gonna waste time in packing their bags 3 hours ahead. No. Not me. I need an EXCITING life. Yea, thats me. Miss Exciting. Sometimes I feel I need to kick those excited electrons in my butt to a distant place called Sanity. Where normal people live their non-exciting lives with their prim bags packed well before the idea of packing crawls into my head.

A round of applause please.. Thank you.Thank you.

So my train is at around 11. (I think) Miss exciting here, doesnt even know the time she's supposed to get there. Forget the place and how to get there.
So I decide to leave office by the 8.30 cab. It generally takes like an hour to get back home. Let me explain the situation here. Well the obvious thing is... I haven't packed yet. Duh.

So I'm waiting outside our building where the Cab list is put up. The cab list will tell you which cab you will be going in.

8.35 - No sign of the guy who puts up the cab list.

8.45 - Where is this guy??

8.55 - I have to catch a train. Where is this loser.?

9.05 - I have to pack!!!! \m/

Time to panic. I call up my roomie.

"Can you do me a favour? Can you take that green bag and put the stuff that i've put on top of that suitcase and put them inside the bag? "

*Detailed conversation follows*

The cab list dude finally shows up and we all jump into the cabs.!

So I get into the cab. And there are some other people in there with me. I'm thinking, I gotta get home fast and finish packing.

9.30 - Roomie calls.

*Ok, Lets play a game. It's called.. Guess what IT is.
IT's something all of us wear. Don't laugh. :|
It's something we all need to pack when we go someplace.
No, I'm not talking about a sweater! Or a Jacket. Or a Sock. Or a Shirt. Or a Skirt.
Yea.. THAT.

*

So She wants to know where THAT is. :|
I tell her. It's in my cupboard or outside only. And she's like where.

btw, I'm in the cab. So far i've been saying "it", "that" etc.
The mindless fool that I am, I blurt out the actual name. Yep.

My ----- ---- is there only!!!!
LOUD. I Mean LOUD.

Sheesh. The silence in the cab could pierce a million ear lobes.

I not only DONT have the guts to turn back,(Where these guys I'm sure are stuffing their mouths and laughing) but I also have this urge to laugh my brains out.

My God. I'm sure my electrons are dead and gone to heaven. Poor things might have died of embarassment.

So I spent that very exciting ride pondering why, just why I need to live an exciting life!

So Yea, that's the EXCITING life that I live.

\m/ Wooohoo \m/

I love that! So totally rocks.

Atchoooooo..

2008-10-27T18:01:00.003+05:30

You know its been a long time since you've blogged when

* When the rest of the blogging world is using \m/

I mean, am I ancient or something? Now i know how old people feel when they look lost in this whole new hi-fi world.

Please don't kill me for trying :|

But i think \m/ is..

A)It's a mouth. With bunny teeth
B)Must be a hand.. You know that chilled out Rock symbol.. with your pinkie and index finger stretched out. Nah. Cant be that easy! :P

C)Top View of a man with a middle partition hair style going to hug someone.
D)Its a bowl of alphabet soup with only the letter m left.
E)I know.. It's a SNAIL! With someone going to beat its bum. Sheesh. What are you people!

F)Shit. Its a crown!! How did i miss out on that? Ah, I can see it. It's one of those plush purple royal looking ones with a gold rim.
G)You know, when i was young we used to call this symbol "palam". I think it used to mean that we're friends or something. Heh :| and there was this other symbol that we used to make with our fingers(Middle and index fingers crossed). It was called "Do". "I'm do with you" meaning, we 're not friends anymore.
How sad! *sigh*

I'm wondering whether all this is just some weird dream that i once had or whether it was actually something we silly kids did. It's funny actually! Us cute little things. Worrying about relationships way back then.!

I also think I need to apologize to the world. For being away. I haven't spoken to many people in ages and I'm sorry! Really really truely sorry! :(

So, if there was a time when i either didn't respond or i ignored you or forgot to do something for you or just forgot you, it just means that i'm egggausted.

I am exhausted. REALLY. I AM. Desperately needed a break. Even my Boss thought so. Heh.
So here goes.. "I'm just a girl standing in front of the world asking them to forgive her"

Sorry, ;) that line from Notting Hill kinda fit! Anyway, Be yourself and Be Nice. The world needs nice people.

Lots of love,

Annette

Chennai is HOT!!

2008-06-03T15:29:00.004+05:30

You really have to be prepared when you come to chennai. Really. I mean it's reallly hot and sultry.
Despite my numerous trips to the water counter, i don't think my brain would have ever understood those insane thoughts that whizzed around my head.

"I just drank a few minutes ago!!"

I went for a youth conference in Chennai.
8 of us girls in one room. By the time, all of us have a shower at night, it would have been 3 a.m. I've not seen 3 a.m in a long time!

So much for a few hours of sleep to satisfy our closing eyes.

When you think of water, you think of Pee.

That was a speed breaker sign. (:D Well, NOT ANYMORE!! Muhahahahaha)

1.2.3 Dsshhum

2008-05-11T10:34:00.003+05:30

On a hot sunny day,
In May
Three pretty girls,
Happy and gay

Wanted to have some fun
In the sun
Three pretty girls,
With a gun.

We're not here to kill
But chill
Three pretty girls,
Oh yes, we will.

Who said we can't aim?
We have to live up to our name!
Three pretty girls,
Rule at this game.

We shot those arrows,
What a graceful pose?
Three pretty girls,
The dust arose.

Bow and Arrow
Bullet and gun
To sum it all-
A day of fun.

P.S. That was not even a real gun and it was SO heavy!

In search of the Croissant

2008-05-10T16:59:00.002+05:30

Breakfast at Coffee Blossom, Club Mahindra,Codagu Valley, Coorg

Today's special was croissant. Croissant is a very classy form of bread that is twisted and has flavours like Apple, Cheese,Chocolate etc.
There was also English muffin, toast, marmalade, jam, butter,coffee, porridge to complete that English Breakfast picture. Oh yes, and the sausage, omlette and salami for all the non-vegetarians.

Ah, heaven for a foodie like me!

Oh, we're not done here! How can we miss out on the good ol' Indian Yum-to-tum food?
Idli with coconut chutney, green chutney,tomato chutney and sambar. Masala Dosa made straight into your plate, (I didnt have it. Although it looked good on my sistah's plate)Vada, Something Karat or Karat Something (looked like bisibellabath-if you know what that is!), pav bhaji, lots of fruits, salad. Yea, I guess that's it!

Now, back to my Croissant story.. heh.. kinda got deviated by all that food in my head!

Despite the large variety of Croissant just placed there looking very pretty, and when we knew that there was a chocolate Croissant somewhere there, we knew we HAD TO GET THEM CHOCOLATE ONES!

Three rows of Croissant! Just looking at them was blissful! Ah, I love being a foodie. This totally rocks! Mum, Sis, Cuz and I looked equally clueless as to what was what!! They had conveniently just mentioned the names of the Croissant on a card next to the entire thing!!

I mean, THEY LOOK THE SAME!!
P.S. Just remembered there was sugar coated donuts too. Was just divine.

So, we decided to ask the waiters there. Which is the chocolate one? Hmmm

That dude(God Bless Him), mumbled something and i just kinda looked like I was hit by a My-Brain-Can't-Comprehend bomb. (God Bless me too). So we understood it was pointless. So, the bulb breaking IDEA that we came up with was, Just eat 'em all!! haha :D

So Sis Ate: the 1st row extreme left one, and some other one.
Amy ate: 3rd row middle, the english muffin
Mom ate the extreme right and something else I guess.
I ate the donut and something which i don't think had any distinct flavour. I convinced myself it was white chocolate and ate it blissfully! Don't get me wrong, it was good! Actually reallllllly good.

So much for our trial and error tactic. It failed miserably. In the middle of all of this, Mum spotted the chef! Good job Mum! Right on. So she asked him. He told us that the 3rd one,first row was the chocolate and pointed out to the others too!! I dont remember exactly.

So, FINALLY we had found which one was chocloate. So Amy marched to the intimidating Croissant table and took a croissant from the 3rd plate on the first row. I asked her to get one for me too! ;)

And then, wait for it... wait for it.. wait for it..
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IT WAS CHEESE!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!
Man, were we laughing!
So the 2nd plate on the first row HAD to be chocolate. So my sister finally decided to try them! (After a 5 minute gap of course for the rest of the food to digest! like duh..)
God bless us all 'cos this time it WAS CHOCOLATE!! Phew. I dont think i could have eaten anything more.
And all of us shared that one Croissant. Ah, bliss at last. A Chocolate Croissant to end the meal. I ended it with a south Indian Filter Coffee too. Lovely.
And that was the end of "In search of the Chocolate Croissant"!

A great breakfast to start our day!
My next post will include what we did the rest of the day!

What's in a name?

2008-04-19T12:28:00.003+05:30

I always thought my name meant "Little girl". Since Ann represents a woman and hence the assumption that Annette meant little girl.

Cigar --> Cigarette
Ann --> Annette

But when i did some research on it, i found:

1) Annette is derived from Anne (Usage in French)
2) Anne is actually the french form of Hannah!
3) Anne was apparently the name of the mother of the Virgin Mary
4) Hannah (from the hebrew word Channah) meant "favour" or "grace" or "the gracious one" or "loving one".
5) Hannah was the name of the mother of the prophet Samuel in the Old Testament.
6) The latin version of the name is Anna.

Sarah:

1)Means Princess. And my sister has always gloated about her being a princess! :| .It's a pretty name though.

2) There are 58 versions of the name Sarah.
3) The Farsi version of the name is Soraya!
4) Amir's wife in the kite runner is named Soraya.
5) Soraya was the name of the first wife of the last shah of Iran.

Will update soon! Cya

I.B.I.A.

2008-04-19T09:09:00.007+05:30

Yesterday, I realized that life is totally worth living and everyday is a better day and a more challenging day. I met some of the most amazing people last night and i certainly learnt a lot of things from them. So, we had good food, good people and a great day of fellowship. What more could i ask for. As an International conference was being held at my parent's workplace, people from all over the world were attending the conference and yesterday we hosted dinner at our place.

But really, they were among the most polite people I've ever met in my life! I actually heard so many "thank you"'s that actually could have exceeded the number of times i've ever heard from the people around me everyday! You know what it actually made me a better person. I want to be more affectionate (Oh no) and more loving (don't get your hopes high :P) and more generous (it's your lucky day!). What i want to say is that would it kill us if we were more polite? I could use the term "profusely polite" to describe them.

Oh yeah.
I- Indian
B- British
I- Iranian
A- American

Atleast now i know what an Iranian flag looks like! Shame on me! :(

I'd met Janet last year I think and she totally blew me away. She's from Britain and she's probably the most fun and classy lady I've met. She's not afraid to experiment with her clothes and certainly does not compromise on her luggage. The driver told my dad that they couldn't even lift her suitcase!!! Ray, an American joked whether they could see HER BEHIND HER SUITCASE! :D Americans and their sarcasm. PRICELESS. She was quite the talk of the conference with her shoes matching her suitcase! But a very smart lady nonetheless! I was really impressed. Her husband, Rodney made a nice wooden bowl with a lid for us. Made of Holly and Indian Timber and polished with beeswax. Awww.

Ralph, the American lady wore a beautiful Salwar Khammez and lovely shoes. (The shoes.You have to love the shoes!!) She gave me such a big hug, I was taken by surprise. She was going gaga over my Mom's Sari. Ah yes, the Sari. She popped me a question. "So.. What are your plans?"
I said "I have two more yrs of college. "

And then she asked," after that? "

And i dont know what came over me, but i said, "I want to travel the world!!"

Everyone was like "ooooooh.. thats nice! Where do you wanna go?" I said
(believe it or not) Paris!!
That was a fun conversation. I do want to travel the world one day.

Apparently my sister's dessert was a big hit! Lemon Pie. WOW. I can still taste it!!
Dinner was excellent! It always feels great to have some good food! Ah.. I'm in heaven! After everybody had left, the Iranian Woman arrived. Her flight had been late. I think she was the most fascinating of them all!

Elahi. What a beautiful name? My Mom told me her full name. (It was SO long, but fascinating nonetheless) Well, she's the first Iranian I've ever met! And she is really what you call a woman. Such dignity, such grace. She wore a cream coloured suit with stripes of a lighter shade and a beautiful cream coloured scarf that covered her head. She spoke with a very distinguishable Iranian accent which i found really fascinating. She said she felt closer to the Indians as she found lots of similar words that were used. For instance,

1)Chai
2)Paneer
3)Bhise (20 in Hindi)
Those were among the few we discovered were in common. My Mom asked her about Iran. She said, with sadness that was evident to all of us,that they didn't have the luxury of security which we enjoy in India(To an extent). She told us about how her mother was robbed while she was on her way to the Doctor. The robber grabbed her purse and ran away. She had important papers with her. And this happens ever so often and the police station is always full of people with their complaints. They told her they can do nothing about it and that she should apply for her papers, saying she had "lost" them. It would be faster. Elahi said that she wondered if the police were in league with the robbers!

She told us about the work conditions in Iran. How people who worked hard were just not paid because they were classified as another group and how people who didn't work at all, were paid a fat pay cheque. She said that based on the basic needs that the people rightfully deserved, it had failed miserably. Common people really don't care about oil or nuclear power. They want a peaceful and safe place to live. Where their family is secure and living conditions are good. She said that their actions did not tally with their promises. The Shah had promised (back in the late 70's or early nineties )that they would have so much money that they would come door to door with money to give. Well, I don't know what draws a person to their mother land. Despite the suffering and treachery, nothing can compare to the land you call your homeland. The place you call home. Some say that North Western Iran used to be
The garden of Eden . There has been a lot of theories about the actual location of the garden of Eden. I'm currently reading the book of Geneses and everytime I read it, I find a new angle to it.

A very accomplished lady. A very beautiful heart.

And i was very honoured to meet this amazing woman. She loved her family deeply and embraced life as it came before her. Life is tough.

But the key is to embrace it.

Embrace the cross

2008-04-18T12:40:00.006+05:30

Embrace the cross, you Christian Soldier;
Hold on to what is pure and right.
Though the world may not embrace her,
Hold on soldier, hold on tight.

I pray that I can see, O Master;
I pray that Thou grantest me sight.
That I may walk through dark,hereafter;
Shine on me,Thy glorious Light.

Embrace the cross, you Christian Soldier;
Hold on to what is pure and right.
Though the world may not embrace her,
Embrace her with me day and night!

Embrace the cross, you Christian Soldier
The world today has gone astray.
Though none agree to embrace her with you,
Remember that Christ leadeth the way.

My heart leaps for joy, to serve Thee;
For goodness and strength I to Thee pray.
Embrace the cross, O Christian Soldier,
For He will lift your burden away.

Embrace the cross, O Christian Soldier;
Await the Lord in that precious hour.
For then the world will fear His presence,
Then the world will feel His power.

And everything that has breath will praise the Lord.
Every being,every leaf, every flower.
Embrace the cross, O Christian soldier;
For the Lord our God will reign forever!
-Annette

2008-04-16T17:17:00.003+05:30

I LOVE this photograph!
One of my experiments with my camera.

Wasssup

2008-03-26T22:33:00.002+05:30

I like that word or rather "non-word". Its kinda cute and snazzy. heh. Anyway, after a LOOOOOOOOONG gap of being devoid of the blogging frenzy, yes, I'M BACK!

And i've been tagged. By you know who. No prizes for guessing ;)
You'll probably be the only one reading this! haha. So yay! I'm excited.. Havent written in a while.. So here goes!

A-Available? Yes.

B-Best friend(s):Nethra

C-Cake or Pie: Ah, now you're making me hungry! ;) Cake till i get bored of it and pie till i get bored of it.

D-Drink of choice: Well, this sounds so boring but yea, essentially cold water. I hate aerated drinks. Love fruit juice

E-Essential thing used everyday: My hard drive, t.v ;) , my lappie

F-Favorite color: Purple, black , white , blue

G-Gummi bears or worms: Gummy bears. Yay

H-Hometown: Well i was born in Saudi, brought up in coimbatore but my hometown is in kerala.

I-Indulgence: FOOD. Anytime. Anywhere.

J-January or February: Who framed this question? You deserve Two free kicks :D

K-Kids and names: I love my cousin Ria. I love all names except maybe rosy,dincy,polite (YES),delite(YES) and a majority of other mallu names. I love you Mom and Dad!

L-Life is incomplete without: love

M-Marriage date: I don't know!!! I need a guy first! :D

N-Number of siblings: Two- Jim and Sarah

O-Oranges or apples: Both. (Straight from the refrigerator)

P-Phobias: Fear of making a fool out of myself. Well i do it all the time, but not in front of everyone! :P

Q-Quote: You know, you dont have to make me feel stupid!!

R-Reason to smile: My God, My Family, Chocolates, Anything made from potato, Grilled chicken sandwitch, the rain, love, a good book and a good movie topped with hot chocolate or hot coffee or cold coffee or cappaccino or decaf or frappe or katten capi (Black coffee). COFFEE. Drawing, writing, ooooh..travelling by train, walking, SINGING (how can i forget), watching something in silence, chatting for hours with my friends/family, when Dad cracks a joke (for which only he laughs! But it brings a smile anyway! :) shoes and Diamonds!)

S-Season: Monsoon. Ah I love it

T-Tag three people: Sarah, Deepika, Johnson (If you'll EVER read this ;))

U-Unknown fact about me: Well shush!! I do dumb stuff. Dont really want the whole world to know! :P

V-Vegetable(S) you do not like: Food <---> Me. We connect.

W-Worst habit: Prolonged relaxation ( Lazyness is a boring word. )

X-rays you have had: None, zero, zilch, poojyam, nil

Y-Your favourite food: Oh man. Food <---> Me. We connect.

Z-Zodiac: Cancer.

Food = life ?

2008-02-10T10:37:00.000+05:30

Are Indians unhealthy?
Ever since my Mom came back from her trip to Chicago 3 years back, she's been facsinated by the concept of eating VEGETABLES for lunch!! In fancy terms, a salad :|
I understand that our ancesters did a lot of manual labour in the fields etc and hence the plate full of rice. They needed the carbohydrates after a long day of work. Considering, the lack of leg movement in my life, i'm not surprised how fast i can put on a few kilos by just staring into space! It is no wonder that after a long day of college, when i was dreaming of some Rice, meat and tossed vegetables, i came back home to see my plate of vegetables and TOSSED RICE! Minus the meat. How sumptious. I had to look twice to actually notice the rice on my plate. My appetite took a double take and almost fainted with sorrow.

But despite the lack of enthusiasm on my face, that was infact what i should be eating to remain healthy. The extra carbohydrate in my body, unless utilised would be converted to fat. No wonder my mom keeps asking me to exercise. Unfortunately, the world has become a global village and people have become almost too competitive. It's almost an unnecessary chore to exercise these days. But that's where we are wrong. For a healthy body and mind, we need to exercise. My mom once heard Vishvanathan Anand's interview. She asked me what i thought he said when he was asked the question of what he does to keep his mind sharp. And i meekly said, "su do ku?" :) haha. But infact, he said he takes the time to do some physical exercise! Hah. If your body is not healthy, how can your mind be? When you feel good about your body, that will most definitely make you feel like a better human being. It brings out a confidence in you that you never thought you had.So, my dear unhealthy Indians, take some time to shake those legs and shed some kilos! Eat right, think right.

Untitled

2008-01-01T15:07:00.000+05:30

It was a holy night,that night at the roof. I looked at the most beautiful thing i had ever seen. The moon, she was painted yellow with the best brush from heaven. She shone her light for all to see. She beamed above in the starry skies, prepared for my Jesus. And was I?The stars from afar winked at me. They waited for my Lord in awe. And was I? I stood with my knees almost giving up. It felt like like the whole world had lost it's voice. And i could only hear my own deep breath. At that moment i knew what Christmas meant. We were all waiting for My Jesus that night.We were all numb for words. For none could explain the peace we had.

None could explain the love of Jesus.

Why?

2008-01-01T14:50:00.000+05:30

Looking at the moon,was like looking straight at you..
Hard to look away.

Watching the light surround you,I Found it
Hard to look away.

Taking in the silence of the night,I knew it was
Hard to look away.

I wanted to look at the stars,the moon,the sky
So hard to look away.

But my mind,my heart,my soul saw you..
Why should i look away?

SAAWARIYA

2007-11-12T19:14:00.000+05:30

WELL,WHAT DID YOU EXPECT????

I'm not someone who loves Bollywood or the Karan Borers of the world. I do not like the excessive emotions portrayed on screen. The numerous and cliched "Nahi Nahi". Oh Boo hoo. What happened to the stories i grew up watching? Hindi cinema used to be fun!! But somewhere along the line, people got carried away with all the glam and gore. All you see these days is hero worship and a whole lot of masala and dhamaka. There you have it. A blockbuster hit! Everyone's happy. Why aint I?

It looks like my sister and I are among the only people who actually loved the movie!! WHAT??? Are you'll kidding me? Is this one big joke??
This is my first movie review and i'm glad that i chose this movie or rather it drove me to write this.This is dedicated to all those who loved the movie!!

"Saawariya". I was anxious to know what saawariya meant. While watching the movie, Raj, played by Ranbir Kapoor showed me what love meant.
That love does not falter.
Love has no restrictions.
Love does not accuse.
Love allows you to respect everyone.
Love doesnt let you to degrade people.
Love is open.
Love is refreshing.
Love is hopeful.
Love. Love and let go.
There's nothing to lose.
Only a lot to gain.
Saawariya meant "beloved".
Our Saawariya was portrayed as a pure, hopeful and charming young man. He was the ray of hope for the people he was destined to meet.Whoever it was, he had his love to give. He taught Sakina, played by Sonam Kapoor to be brave and not to be intimidated by the world. To imagine herself in a boxing ring, fighting against all evil. He brought back the smile that she'd left behind waiting for Iman, her love to return,played by Salman Khan.
In the end of the day, although he had loved and lost, he still had brought back hope to the people around him. He was not some romeo. He was someone rare. Someone Sakina should have treasured.
A beautiful potrayal of love. Our Saawariya was truely Love Incarnate. Very impressive cinematography and dialogues. A must-watch for all those who appreciate art, poetry and love.
It may be a flop for the industry but it will always remain in my heart as the best love story ever!!
For all those who didnt like the movie, as Raj would say, "Ok Bye!!!" :)
At the end of the day, its whether you learnt anything from it.
I CERTAINLY did.
Read the story here

The bliss of solitude

2007-10-27T11:55:00.000+05:30

Oh! The bliss of solitude is what I feel tonight.
Far above in the hazy skies, I see the circle of light.

It's you and me my moon, just you and me my love.
Take me some place yonder, someplace far above.

Where the wind blows through my hair and angels surround me,
Where raindrops belong and the dreamy stars give me company.

I dream of whispering to the clouds, for rain this silent hour.
To fill my heart with happiness with every blessed shower.

Choose your life

2007-10-25T13:59:00.000+05:30

Looking back i'm glad i made that choice.
My world could have turned upside down.
I'm glad i found my voice,
And stood on firm ground.
Oh, tempted was I, to take that leap;
It would have blown my senses away.
But those are only memories to keep,
I know it was not me,that day.
I never realised how important it was to choose,
Until i came face to face with that day.
A choice can make you win or lose;
It's YOUR opinion, YOUR choice, YOUR say.

So make a choice - a Glorious one.
Dont be afraid of what others may say.
After all, when the day is done,
It's a brighter future coming your way!

E * D * U * C * A * T * I * O * N

2007-10-23T13:14:00.000+05:30

We don't need no education
We don't need no thought control
No dark sarcasm in the classroom
Teachers leave them kids alone
Hey teacher leave them kids alone
All in all it's just another brick in the wall
All in all you're just another brick in the wall

-Another Brick in the wall (Pink Floyd)

-OK this post is incomplete.. Right now i'm in a frenzy to do non-college things and this is one among many so.. yea. i'll come back to this!
-cya

Another drop in the sea

2007-10-09T22:59:00.000+05:30

I watch the sun sink into the sea.I feel the waves inching towards me and i'm drawn towards it. So eternally drawn. So emotionally drawn. So spiritually drawn. I realise how small i am in this world. How great God is and I wonder how long i have to wait for my redeemer.

And then i got the answer when i read the Bible one day.
Psalm 27: 13-14
13. I am still confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.
14. Wait for the Lord; Be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.

I dive into the sea. It's a whole new world to me. Every creature bearing testimony of God's greatness. Every living creature doing justice to their life. Beauty unseen by me before.
My tears seem to be unnoticed in this new world.
Just another drop in this mighty sea.
It seems ok to let go as i watch the fishes
Cheer me as i float into oblivion.
I feel like a million horses running back home
It's like fighting the wind.
With every hidden strength.
I close my eyes.
And power growls over me.
I choose to forget my fears.
I choose to forget my foes.
I choose to forget my pressures.
I forget.

I learn to be stronger than i used to be.
To wait for My Lord.
I long for that heavenly day.
That day that my parents raised me up for.
That day that i will be redeemed.
That day when i'll be happiest.
That day when i see my Lord ride through the clouds
That day when angels shout HOly Holy Holy.
That day when i'll see the best sunrise.
That day when the moon shines brightest, awaiting my Lord.
That day when good triumphs over evil.

Humbled

2007-09-17T19:47:00.000+05:30

One of my friends, Deepika told me about their hostel terrace. I'd love it if you could read what she'd written about it here

So when i finally got the opportunity to stay a night in the hostel, i knew i had to go up there. As soon as i reached the terrace my heart was on a race. I was overwhelmed and i found myself speechless. Soon after,me and my friends just layed down and faced the sky. All i could see was the clouds looking back at me. Nothing else. It was a starless night. Every emotion, every tear found it's way out. I dont think i'll every forget that starless night. That starless night that claimed it's existance. That starless night that won my heart. We spent some time there and my body refused to move. At that moment, the cold wind could not stop me and my friends could not stop me from staying a bit longer. I didnt want that moment to end. At that moment i was humbled.

I'm lying down on the terrace
And the sky is all i see.

A fallen sky on a fallen night
I learnt what life meant to me.

Lost in this bliss of solitude
I fight the cold inside.

My emotions are tangled
Lord make them untied.

I feel like a star, hidden tonight
Looking at myself lying down below.

"My girl, what's on your mind?
I cant see your glow."

Dear star, I'm humbled today
Dear moon, i've learnt to pray.

Truely and deeply for those whom i love
Knelt down in prayer to my Lord above.

-annette

What i like best!

2007-09-12T19:47:00.000+05:30

Ah well sharanyan's been at it for a while. :D
"i tag annette"

What i would like to do best, (right now) is ban that phrase!! ha ha .. kidding!

no, seriously.. What i like best:

* Sitting on my terrace and watching the clouds fall against the moon.
* Feeling the rush of adrenaline shoot through my body just before i write.
* Feeling the wind hit my face and the whooshing sound that fills my ear
* The taste of chocolate in my mouth
* Staring into nothingness
* Loving and being loved
* Music - chocolate - poetry. The perfect potion to get me high.
* Train journeys
* Singing loudly with my eyes closed with no audience around
* Having a pointless discussion with one of my friends. Where we all end up laughing!
* Speaking with my mouth stuffed and being completely uncomprehensive and yet, being understood by someone! Only 3 people can do that. (My sis, Nethra and Sharadha)
May God Bless the three of you! :) They understand me so well!
* Playing "guess-what-that-reminds-you-of" games with my sister. And enjoying the fact that great minds think alike. ha ha.
* Calling Mirudhula "Gundu Manga" and teasing her and someone..ahen ahem. ha ha :) Amazing gal. Love her.
* Earning the title GM1 (Gundu manga 1) soon after i put on a few kgs! ha ha ha

* Playing my guitar and playing a song in my own way! ( More so because i dont know the right way!! :P )
* Wearing high heel shoes and running up the stairs! :P
* Playing basketball in the rain
* Riding on the swing in the rain (Ah memories of our iv)
* Ah, well doing anything in the rain! :)
* Going for a walk with Dad, mom, bro, sis or nethra.
* Sketching whats on my mind.
* Being inspired by a speech/person.
* Analysing the Bible.
* A timely joke to lighten a situation.
* Roast chicken and fish pie.
* And Brightening someone's day

Yay! i'm done.

Memories.. Lost and found

2007-08-12T20:31:00.001+05:30

The human brain has always fascinated me. How could all my thoughts, dreams, memories fit inside my head? We're talking about compaction here! I mean, not only is it all there,but it's also organised, linked and can be triggered anytime we want. After years of being hidden in one corner of my brain, i can pull out a memory.
I was always amused by how i can still remember the smell of the oil that my mother used to rub on me when i was young. That rectangular tin of Olive Oil. I dont rememeber holding it or seeing it but the image and smell of it is etched in my brain.

My grandmother used to tell me stories about how she used to hold me tight at night when we slept. I spent a few months with my grandparents when i was less than a year old. If i were blind-folded and sent to my grandmother's room, i'd still know that i'm there.

Love. Now, that has fascinated me the most. What is it? Where does it come from? It's only when you're apart that you realise what closeness means. When i was with my mom's parents, my sister was with my Dad's parents,my brother was in boarding school while my parents were busy shifting. I guess that was my first lesson on learning to be away from family.
Quite like our current situation. All of us siblings are in different places.Despite the distance, we all know how much we mean to each other. No scientific proof can justify the working of the human mind and heart.

Similarly, it's only when you lose you're memory that you realise how much memories mean to you. My grandmother lost parts of her memory after a small stroke that she had. You'll be surprised how much you value your memories. I do. And i think a part of me was lost along with her memories. Because we had shared so many of those. All i have is my memories. My faint, blurry memories of growing up around her, of being with them during our vacations. Racing with my cousin towards my grandfather for who gets to sit on his lap!

I don't want to forget. I want to recount them over and over in my head. It saddens my heart to think that she doesnt remember. It's like a few chapters of my life have been skipped. And i miss those days. Those memories. Good memories. I will never forget.

Even though she lost her memory, i found them. Thank you ammachi for those sweet memories. I love you!

Fire..

2007-08-10T22:04:00.000+05:30

Not exactly refined but i like it.

My angel

2007-08-10T22:00:00.000+05:30

Stolen

2007-08-09T20:52:00.000+05:30

Watching the fields pass me by,
I'm thrilled by the wind on my face.
None of my senses can tell me why,
Your heart and mine are on a race.

Everytime you smile, you tease me inside..
Every stolen gaze feels like our first.
I feel like a fading flower
Being swept by your charm.

Like a lone wolf howling in the dark,
My insides scream out your name.
I'm longing for my moon, my love
And i'm not alone anymore.

Where crayon meets paper

2007-07-30T16:59:00.000+05:30

Like a poet hidden
In the light of thought,
Singing hymns unbidden,
Till the world is wrought
To sympathy with hopes and fears it heeded not:

- "To a Skylark " by P.B. Shelley

Silence

2007-07-12T21:45:00.000+05:30

"As Water reflects a face,
So a man's heart relects the man"

-From the book of Proverbs (Bible)

Over the past two years, i learnt a lesson.
Sometimes its better to keep quiet and back off. I can say i was ignorant. I can say that i was blinded by the protection of my family and school friends. I thought the world was all sugar and spice and everything nice. Sad. Yes, i now had to face the rest of the world and i found that it was not a pretty picture. I'm writing this because i was pleasantly surprised by the fact that i was challenged by people to think like them. What i thought about life was not what they thought. I fought hard and i still think i'm on the right side. It's difficult to see people drift away. Words cannot express the hurt inside. Doubts keep flying in my mind, refusing to listen to my heart. How can a person just drift away? I don't get it. Not a word needs to be said. We both know it. Invisible signals pass between our hearts. I have found my real friends. You have found yours. Not a word needs to be said.

Dear snow, does it hurt when you melt away?
Dear grass, does it hurt when you whither away?

Why am i hurt by you drifting away? Why am i shocked by change? Why do people change?
My mind is exploding with things to say but not a word needs to be said. Silence speaks a million words.

Random love ramblings

2007-06-07T15:31:00.000+05:30

You make me feel like a million candles
Waiting to be blown away.

You make me feel like a bunch of roses
Waiting to be given away

You make me feel like a million raindrops
Waiting to fall on your way

You make me feel like a wave in the ocean
As it longs to hit the bay

You make me feel like a night full of stars
Awaiting the sunset today

Defeated by Dad.

2007-05-22T08:42:00.000+05:30

My Dad and I take a lazy stroll in our backyard in kerala and the serene quietness encompasses me. Being brought up in a city, i was not used to the beauty of nature. And this is a nature lover's paradise. What more could yo ask for when it was right outside your door.

I write down my morning's adventure as the rain patters on the tin roof of the shed. The sound of rain is like second heaven. Somehow it clears my mind of all harsh thoughts and i'm lost in this new found pleasantness.

Back to our backyard story.My dad walks ahead of me, with each step on the leaf layered Earth making his presence known. He asks me what i think is the pink fruit hanging from a tree there.I can't quite see it so i go forward and i see a cashewnut fruit with the nut hanging dearly below it. We reach the foot of the tree and scavenge for the fallen fruit below. I collect 2 firm looking ones and hand them to Dad. Both of us smile with satisfaction.

And then he tests my knowledge of plants. OH NO!! he eh. Quite an embarassment! He asks me what is this tree?

I'm looking at him with that 'Do-you-really-think-i-know-look' and he's looking at me with that triumphant smirk.

It's a teak tree he says! And then i notice all the teak trees around and point them out.Wow.
And then he asks me, What is this? (It was a plant.. not yet a tree! in my defence :P)
I mumble a feeble-'tamarind'?
Ha ha you should have seen the look on his face!
It's drumstick and i have it at home! Sheesh Annette! But give me some credit, i guessed it after the first clue..'you can eat the leaves'

Then he asked me a simple one-Jackfruit
(Dad, do you think i'm blind and stupid? :P There are jackfruit hanging all over it!!)

But NO!! That's NOT THE QUESTION!
He asks me, Whats it called in malayalam?
'Er... em... cha.. i know it'
and he's not expecing 'chacka', he wants the name of the tree not the fruit.
He tells me its 'plaave'
And i'm like 'Oh..yea' (And he's told me this like a million times before!!)
Then he asked what a mango tree is called and after a few seconds (of intense thought) i said 'maav'
Yes, he's got a proud smile on his face.
SCORE! yippee! :)

Next, we see pinapple,pepper,turmeric,fern,tapioca,yam etc etc. My Dad's the best..i mean he'll just smell the leaf and say what tree or plant it is! heh.
MAN.
I wasnt bad either.. he asked me to smell the mango and turmuric leaves and i guessed right! ha ha. Although i could make out from the leaf itself! :P

Then he asked me what tree bears fruit on it's trunk?
WHAT KIND OF A QUESTION IS THAT??
And then i gave myself another score when i said

1)Cocoa
2)Papaya
He said 3) Jackfruit
Now why didnt i think of that? Didnt realise that!

He even smelt the tapiocca leaf and confirmed it. My claim was that it was PAPAYA..ha ha..thats funny! (It was a small plant! who can make out?? apparently he can!)

And then he asked me one last.
And i'm like thats just some money plant.
Poor Dad could have disowned me! ha ha.
It was Vanilla!
And I was like .. “Oh, yes…”
Ah, so that was a very nice walk. It’s always nice to walk with him.He knows a plant when he sees one and even the biological name sometimes. And about my knowledge of plants, NO COMMENT.
Heh :P

P.S. During my walk through our backyard in kerala, I almost went through a HUGE spider web!
Eeew.. yep, a nice juicy spider looked back at me. Woah.
I wish i'd taken pics this yr! so these photos are all compliments of google image search! heh :)

The Dark side of Spiderman

2007-04-21T18:06:00.000+05:30

Our friendly neighbourhood Spiderman. The superhero with the spider senses fighting crime. Every kids' hero.
Or not?
Spiderman 3 is loaded with a whole new dark side to our superhero who is up against Sandman and Venom.
Are we ready for his dark persona?
May 4th.

Will it blow us away like the previous 2 movies? Lets wait and watch.

Arranged marraiage Vs Love marriage

2007-04-21T13:36:00.000+05:30

Here i am contemplating about what i must be doing today. Studying or
not studying. After a movie, an hour of of spulrging, a snack of
nuts and listening to freedom by george michael on the idiot box, i
think we all know where this day is headed.
Now where does this much debated over topic come in?Yesterday, we hosted a dinner at home for some of my Mom and Dad's
friends from work. After a 4 day busy schedule at the conference held
in coimbatore, it was time to kick those medical shoes off and have a
darn good time! So,between the cleaning up of my room and the front
room i was getting the load on the big Abhi-Ash bolly-good wedding and
the full lowdown on the ramblings of the die hard fanatic
whats-her-name Jhanvi Kapoor or is it Naina?.
What a day it was! A big bolly wedding with all the whos who attending
it, a Big B look alike, a fanatic, and other look alikes hogging their
few minutes of the limelight.
Yes, so back to the big dinner. I met Janet, who's a Doctor of medical
education from England,Ralph and Debbie from America also in the same
field, Dr Rashmi, Dr Rita,Dr Bill and Dr Avinash. Some of them were more Indian than most Indians i've seen!
It was very nice talking to them. Americans have a very good sense of
humour i must say. And dry humour at that. All those opinions of a
nasty American society were soon kicked out of my mind like a football
racing towards the goal. They were very entertaining, very polite, very
passionate about their work, very humble people. They had respect for
not only people from their own community but also other commnities. The
driver who had accompanied them around told us that they had gotten
very close to all of them and they were all sad that they were leaving.
Now, thats what you call breaking the language barrier.
My mom and dad had an arranged marriage and they were all ears when it
was the time for story telling. Stories of how they got married and
how my siblings and i came into existence :) and how we settled here.
Then came the wedding photos and a whole lot of ooohs and aaahs.
Some of them had gone shopping and it was time for show and tell!
Vibrant Sarees with a lot of detailed prints and beautiful rustic
colours and jewellery. They were so amused by everything. And what i
loved the most was that they gave you so much personal attention.
So mum was telling them about the traditions in North India about how
they would choose a good girl for their son. They apparently would send
a fish to the girl's home and she would have to clean it properly and
send it back! Another way was that she would have to make those pappadams (forgot
what they call it in NOrth India.. the roasted ones) without burning
them!
So they asked sis and i if we were prepared for that! ha ha.. She told
them those customs were pretty ancient these days and we all sighed a
big sigh of relief and had a good laugh! :)
So are you up for an arranged marriage?
1. Secure
2. Merging of two families
3. Having faith in your parents decision
4. Adjusting with the man/ woman in your life

Or Love marriage?
1. Risky.
2. May lead to breaking up a family.
3. May lead to disrespecting your parents.
4. Responsiblity for your actions
5. Being under scrutiny

Mix of both?
Convenient. Everybodys happy.

In both cases,the extreme case, i think, is the worst. Otherwise i
respect both marriages.
Extreme case:
1)Desperately in love. Can't live without him/her. You've decided to
elope without the consent of your parents. Now thats crap.Total
disrespect.You've lived your entire life with your parents.They've
brought you up. And now you're acting smart and acting like you're an
adult. Absolute nonsense. Big stab in the back for the parents if you
ask me.

2) Arranged to marry some big shot,nasty snob with loads of money but
nothing else worth talking about. Pretty sad.

3) Getting married like before you can blink, and getting money/dowry
involved and the fact that you havent seen each other.

All you unmarried people out there, Please stand firm about not
accepting dowry or giving dowry. Lets banish this together. We should
because we can. It'll do you good.
Being dropped at the altar can be heart breaking. I know someone who
went through that. I don't think anyone should go through that.I'll
leave it to God.
Peace.

OH NO!!! SANJAYA's OUT!!

2007-04-19T21:13:00.000+05:30

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!
How can the americam public be so heartless?? AW..It was so Sad!!
That stupid SIMON is Horrendous!
I hope Sanjaya gets rich and famous and kicks Simon before he dies!! ha ha..
Just kidding simon.. I didnt mean to be rude. Not like you're a teeny weeny bit sensitive about anything. But anyway!

This is such a useless post. I'M LIKING IT.
:)) so empty.
So.. here's a very empty "hi" to all.
I feel like dung.

180 degrees to another state of mind

2007-04-18T11:01:00.000+05:30

Hallelujah! Today is dedicated to all you women out there! Especially to my fav sister (actually my one and only sister! :P kidding sis) .. Yesterday was her birthday. Happy Birthday!!
Yes, put on those not -so-bored-as-ever shoes and get the groove!

A whole day of non-stop minding rocking, ear blasting, thought numbing, head banging music! ...................NOT

First on my list..
Sing with me.. R E S P E C T just a little bit.
1)Aretha Franklin-respect
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAh!!

2)CHUMBAWAMBA-TubThmping (Yes, thats a song)
Brings back fond memories of all of us banging our heads back in the days!

3)Baby Boy-Beyonce
(I've come to realise how i'm one of the world's worst dancers! ha ha ... thank you thank you.Far too kind :) )

4)Right now i need............. FUEL! Fuel give me fire give me that which i desire!!
Metallica!

5)Time for some trash music..... Make way dumpster boys!
I'm just a teenage dirtbag!
Wheatus

6)And my all time favs............. SHE'S GOT THE LOOK!
Roxette!

7)I remember we used to sing this song like fools.
Fallin -Alicia Keys

8)Cranberries- Animal instinct
(I get the feeling. Suddenly something's happenened to me.... )

9) Norah Jones-Don't know why
(One of those songs you close your eyes and listen to.. Another one of my favs -come away with me. Phew. That is ONE song. You can just feel the words.. walking through the tall yellow grass and waking up with the rain on your tin roof.. absolutely romantic )

10)Can't fight the moonlight-Leanne Rhimes
Being shy has never been this glorified. Singing in the moonlight. What more can you ask for? OST- Coyote ugly

11) We all meet a beautiful stranger like Madonna did.

12)Madonna-sorry
It's one of those addictive songs. She's so versatile. Love her.

13)Nelly Furtado's new album totally rocks!! My favs - Say it right, promiscuous, maneater

14) Give it up for........................... JUSTIN!! :)
What goes around comes back around.. very true. His grammy performance of that song was brilliant!

15) Another one of roxette's Sleeping in my car. I remember i used to listen to all her songs in school. Memories. hmph. I'm getting old!

16) Akon- Dont bother
A very pretty song. People may think otherwise about what you do. But who cares! It's your life!

17)Natural woman- (I think.. Aretha franklin)
Makes me love being a woman. :)
(I added a few more :P )

18)Jesus take the wheel- Carrie Underwood
What a voice! When i sing that song, i end up laughing ..ha ha :) cos her range is so high or maybe its because my range is so low! :) effortless singing. She needs a standing ovation, a good massage and a free holiday trip for like ever!!
Amazing.

19)Chris Daughtry.. his new album is nice.The guy who was there in american idol last year. Loved his voice! I remember sis and i had this long,unending discussion when he got elimated..ha ha. Disappointment was not the word.

20)Jennifer Paige -Crush
An ancient song almost! ha ha.. its been soooo long since ive played this song!
I miss my school life! :(

Ah. Where would i be without music?

The Day of the Lord will come as a Thief comes at night

2007-04-15T09:13:00.000+05:30

We hear people say, "It's not about the money.."

But you know what, for a child who hasn't gotten a decent meal, who lives in a shabby tent, who cant afford good clothes and can't go to school, It IS about the money. I've come to realise. It's easy for rich people to say. Would you say it if you had 50 paise in your pocket and no where to live? A thought to ponder about.

I was travelling by train to Bangalore to visit my sister. We were almost near the contonement station when i looked out my window and saw the most saddening sight. A sight i don't think i would have been able to live through. The train tracks were at a higher level and down below there were these blue and brown tents, tyres, shabby clothes, a vessel or two and a few kids running around amidst the dirt.

" "
" "
It was like i was an alien entering a new land and discovering new things on this strange planet.And this alien me, told my Mom and Dad, "My God, how can anyone live like this? " My Dad replied, "It's tough. It's very difficult to rise up from nothing."

I was dumbstruck.
I now respect my Dad and Mom even more. They work so hard to support our family.It's moments like these when i think i'm truely blessed.
Give to others whatever you have. What do you gain by hoarding your treasures? It would benefit someone else a lot more if you could just soften your hearts and give.

Another thing i was thinking about.
If you see a beggar on the road, would you feel love? Would you try to help or is this a status issue? Begging is a sin but not giving when you have,is a greater sin. Would your friends mock you? Well its about time you realised who your friends are. What if you were broke one day and had to beg? Do we love ourselves more? Do we consider ourselves greater because we have money? Arent we more immature? Arent we the ones without love? Arent we turning down an opportunity to help someone?

Can you love your enemies? Can you imagine praying for them? It says so in the Bible.Pray for your enemies and even those who persecute you. When i first read that, i was thinking. "WHAT?" But yes. They are the ones that need your prayers the most. They are the ones who are insecure.They are the ones who have issues.

How can i be a better person? How can i help?
The answer is Jesus.
Who is Jesus? Why did he come down on Earth? Why did he die for us? Why am i here? What is my purpose? Why do some people have to struggle more? Why do some people have to pursue happiness? Why is it gifted to some? Why am i righteous? Why does the bible say so to those who believe? Why am i born again?

My Grandfather once asked me if i was born again. I immediately replied. "Of course." His smile told me that i
was right.
I don't know what made me say it but thats what i said. Now i believe i am. It says so in the bible. It also very clearly says that in the end of time, good will reign over evil.
The book of revelations is written by St. John. A visionary. The entire book talks about the last days. How satan is defeated. Yet people choose the evil side. Maybe because of their ignorance or maybe because they want to challenge the truth.

All you have to do is choose. Good vs Evil.
What is your choice?

The title is quoted from 1 Thessalonians 5 :2

My funny bone got tickled

2007-03-29T21:35:00.000+05:30

There are no words to explain the emotions that go through my head when i sit(read sleep) in System software class.. Frustration, boredom, restlessness, helplessness,regret. The list is endless. But it aint all that bad you know.. Sir's got a unique way of making us laugh. AT HIM. :) My bored brain cells sure have a good time in ss class!
Especially when we hear the inviting words.."Ok students, today we're gonna learn about the YACC -Yet another compiler compiler" Darn.So interesting!

Today we had an open book quiz. My very first open book quiz. Was fun actually. So he started with "The rules". None of us have any clue in this subject and then he tells us that its 5 marks for a correct answer!

Bang. A bullet goes through my chest. WHAT?? I thought it was some stupid one word quiz!!! All of us are like dumbstruck! And we're all thinking.. SHIT.

Can the day be any worse??? We already had 2 tests in the morning..both of which we screwed and now, five marks which count as internal assessment could go down the drain.Thank you.

This guy even writes it on the board!!

"Correct answer : 5 marks"
We're watching with our mouths open.

"Partial answer : 4 marks"
Seriously, are we kids? Its enough if he says it. But you know such moments deserve to be preserved!

"Wroin answer: 3 marks"

HA HA HA..if the part about the "WRONG" answer being 3 marks wasnt hilariuos enough, it was the spelling that got me dying with laughter. The entire class is now stuffing their mouths with anything that's in front of them.

:)) ROFLMAO

And he bangs the desk, jumps as usual like he's doing some exotic dance and says "Ennapa sirikirae? Why? "

I wonder why? Hmmm.

Falling in love

2007-03-25T19:16:00.000+05:30

She's running away from everything,
Tears of joy running down her lush cheeks.
Just as the tide rises high,
Her heart soars with passion unknown.
The sound of the wind and the sea,
Cannot dampen the thudding beat of her heart.
She wants someone to stop her, but she cant help
Feeling the silencing void inside.
She'd given him her whole heart.
She falls on the sand in submission.
She asks God, 'Is this love?Why must i love?'
Love is War.War of 2 hearts.
The battle makes you stronger.
The consequence brings the truth.
Yes, it is love.
And you must love because i loved you.

Down bliss lane

2007-03-11T20:19:00.000+05:30

Watching the rain fall on my hands,
Painting the colours of the setting sun,
Making a "supposed " castle on the beach,
Collecting sea shells like a new found treasure,
Taking in the silence of a lake,
Singing as though no one's listening,
Dancing with my sister till we drop down with exhaustion,
Playing with mud with my cousin,
Fighting for food with my brother,
And then give it to him cos i cant eat it!!
Dribbling the ball in an empty court,
Running without any inhibition,
Chatting with my best friend for hours,
Getting caught for giggling too loud,
Writing a poem for someone.
Memories.

To mom, with love

2007-03-11T20:07:00.000+05:30

A woman smiles with pride,
Tears of utter joy run down her glowing cheeks;
She bids goodbye to her swollen tummy,
Awaiting the reason for her life.

Her insides are no longer dormant,
But errupting with love;
Oh, who can stop the volcano inside?
None. She prays day and night.

The unborn babe is safe inside;
Oh! How she wishes that, that be the abode.
Where none can harm, none can rebuke
Where none can mislead a beautiful mind.

Despite her fears, for they are many;
She wants her baby to be strong.
To take that first breath and live,
In this world of good vs evil.

She feels her heart has left her;
If you really love someone,you'd let go.
She did.
She understood a different kind of love.

She saw the most beautiful girl.
She heard her cry with the most beautiful voice.
She kissed her and knew,
She felt like a woman.

Nonsensical excreta

2007-03-02T19:08:00.000+05:30

The consequence of going through the entirety of boredom in various levels:

1) You discover new techniques of yawning.

2) You find yourself laughing for useless things.

3) You become your own nightmare AND

4) THE best recreation EVER -----> NONSENSICAL POETRY

You start with a bunch of rhyming words..It's pretty simple.

Planet
Annette
Comet
Piglet
Reset
Wallet
Climate

AND THEN,
when you feel the most lousiest, :)
write the first thing that comes to your mind with those words!

In the Dark Planet,
Of Annette,
Landed the comet
And a fair piglet,
Who soon reset
His wallet,
According to the climate.

And pass it around the class!

Boredom is in the mind and so is fun.

I' VE BEEN TAGGED!!

2007-02-05T19:32:00.000+05:30

So yea, this is my first tag. And yea i'm looking forward to kicking someone most dearly for tagging me.

10 things that define my style:

Ahem. Not the right thing to write about ever since i stepped foot into my most "loving" college. The home away from home.The land of bliss.The place of fun and excitement. NOT : ha ha

1) I'm usually in my kurta and jeans ragged at the end (with duppatta of course.. dont want to kill the lame ass people at psg)

2) Cant live without my music. So i'm either singing, or blasting music at home or "trying" to play my guitar. You'll find me in class with my prized music book. It's got all the music i love.Lyrics, chords etc. Used to carry my ipod until it conked for some apparent reason!

3) I dont wear make up at all. I like it natural :) I do something to my face only when forced to or when extremely "necessary"(read weddings)
In school, the makeup person used to make me look like a ghost for the play. yuck.What was more irritating was that there was this hot guy getting his makeup done (yea..guys got to look like ghosts too :D ) and i looked like i'd woken up from my grave.. ha ha memories.

4)I carry my pen drive everywhere with me

5)I carry my small leather ,thin,long- strapped purse with me with my phone.

6)I love my shoes. I love my sexy high heels. :P My Flats. My jhoota type shoes and sports shoes too when i play.
In my first semester at college in physics lab, One of my sirs called me and asked me to come to his table.For a moment i freaked. Shit. what did i do now?? Did i laugh too loud??(yes, apparently, you get kicked out of the lab for laughing! ) Did i break something accidently??

But no...................................................................................................................................................

The crime:
The insanity of wearing high heels to college!
HA HA HA HA.
Good Lord.Forgive me sire ! :P
And i had to listen to him lecture about something he read in this magazine and that magazine about it having ADVERSE effects and bla bla..

We called him "HIS ROYAL NOSINESS". Well he royally earned that title! :)

7) I write poetry when i get the rush. So i grab a pen and any piece of paper around. Dont know if thats any kind of style but anyway!!Surprisingly, i dont have a book of poetry where i write everything. I had one but apparently i lost it. Not exactly an organised person. :)

8) I feel so much less like a girl now. ha ha. And the fact that i have no craze for nail polish or shaping my nails just proves it! I prefer them short and neat. NO PINK or cute designs on my nails. Used to paint them blue,shock white,lilac,coffee brown and gray. Always wanted to paint them black ha ha :) but mum gave me this look of disapproval :P and i threw away that idea.

9) I sketch. Supposedly. I do like to paint the colours of the sunset.I love everything about nature, like to keep it clean, like to take in the silence of a moment, love the rain falling on me,love thinking about it.Love the clouds in every hew.

10)My room has an avril poster(back when she was this new gal rock sensation), 2 egyptian themed wall hangings (a sphinx with pyramids in the background and a pharoah ), A picture of Jesus, an "I love you " wall hanging, a pile of books, pics of school memories, some of my artistic things on the wall (posters, painting bla bla..) ,my guitar, my fav spot---my bed.Not to forget my desk and my cupboard where all my clothes are shoved in. :P

Phew finally. Now i look like a complete non-stylish person. H aha ha. But yea, that's me.

Jade "Baddy" out Shilpa in

2007-01-21T17:46:00.000+05:30

50 years back, racist comments were widespread and many people at large were snubbed at being inferior to the "white race". Today, the world has overcome the evil traits of racism. AND SO IT SEEMS. Aparently i was wrong.And the racist comments thrown at Shilpa Shetty on the reality show Celebrity Big Brother house was enough to shake our stagnant minds on the current, yes, current issue of racism.
Although Jade apologises for her nasty behaviour, the damage has indeed been done.

Where do we stand today when we talk about racism?

Dont we respect other cultures?

Is there racism amidst the Indian community itself?

In case you hadnt followed the show,i've taken this from Jon Stock's article on LAST WORD in THE WEEK.

1.One of the other housemates, Jack Tweedy, who is in the unfortunate position of being Jade Goody's boyfriend,suggests that Shetty should pick chicken bones out of a lavatory with her teeth. also that "..we should put her out in the garden and lock the door"

2.Goody describes Shetty as "She is apparently some Bollywood actress but i've never heard of her. For all I know, she could be someone of Old Kent Road.She is f****** sly.She makes me feel sick.She makes my skin crawl.I wouldn't trust her as far as i could throw her.She isn't genuine.I've seen her whispering,laughing behind people's backs."

3.Goody's mother, Jackie,constantly refers to her as "the Indian" and refuses to pronounce her name properly.

4.Danielle Lloyd,glamour model watches Shetty apply facial hair bleach and says: "She wants to be white.She is a dog." she also said when Shilpa handled food,"You don't know where those hands have been "

Also Jo O'Meara,ex singer with S club 7 adds: "Indians are thin because they dont cook food properly."
Shocking is not the word.

I am Thine Oh Lord

2006-12-17T20:32:00.000+05:30

From ages of old, He has loved me.
Who am I to question His wisdom?
Who am I to question my purpose?
Who am I to question God's plan?
Who am I Lord. Who am i?

With every new life that blesses the Earth,
Angels dance with joy in Heaven, i know.
Lord, how much more would they have danced
When the heard that you were born into this world?
Oh, i can hear the music, it's ringing in my heart.
Lord, every inch of my body, knows that you are Lord.
Lord, everything that i have is because of You.
Lord, humble me.
What the world has to give, does not bring me joy,
But a second in Your presence is like a million treasures won.
A million lamps lit is nothing compared
To the light that shines within me.
The light that saved me.

Merry Christmas!

2006-12-16T22:19:00.000+05:30

Merry Christmas Everyone!!

May your Christmas be filled with joy and thankfullness.
God bless.

(Just made this in paint :))

2006-12-16T21:57:00.000+05:30

Let me introduce my galiant protector, my armed monster, my ferocious, trained drool shooter. (:P)

Name:Rocky
Breed: Doberman
Please note: Looks are deceptive cos he's one sweet dog!
Licks almost too much and leaves me messy and grumpy! ha ha.
Weakness: Food and me :) and dad and bro and sis and mum.
He's one spoilt dog :) pampered all his life! By that i dont mean that he weras a cute dress or has a diamond collar but yea, he's loved a lot.

Most affectionately called: Chooey
Loves: To moan and make a fuss and get attention
Hates: Even an ant that comes in our way. He'll even bark at an insect miles away!!

Lemony loo

2006-12-16T16:17:00.000+05:30

Ah yes. I needed some colour out here! And i wanted to go all the way and get lemony :) . An inspiration from a friend. Someone who we lovingly call "chechi", "chena", "aunty".

Makes me think about college and all the fun times we have. Despite the tremendous amount of preparation that our most endearing SS sir puts into his classes, well there has to be someone who cracks us up every time. Yes, you sir.

The day is droning and sandheep's in his 13th dream.
I cant supress my laughter at the sight of him in pensive thought.
Saranya's falling on her desk next to me.
I'm looking at the board, with other things in mind.
"Chena" hears "back track" as "back scratch". God bless.

Lo and Behold... the moment arises.
Mr SS sir says, "Students, do you know how to find the 1's compliment of the 1's compliment sum of a set of numbers?"
Like we could care less.

But no.. he has to awaken us!!
GREAT IDEA.
"Looks like all of you 'll are sleeping!"
Well surprise surprise!

So he writes on the board,
"Once compliment of the Once compliment sum of.."

Ah, yes. We're awake all right!
HA HA HA HA.
I'm trying hard not to make funny noises while laughing while mirudhula almost dies with laughter.
The last row cant control either. HELP!
You know it's rude to laugh AT SOMEONE'S FACE!!!
Man... And the Guy didnt even stop us!! Just looked at us! And we looked back.
And yes, Sandheep woke up.

Turns out that day evening he told our rep that girls and guys shouldnt sit together. Like that had anything to do with it.

And the man finally got it! God bless!

Firangi craze-- a whacky point of view (a shot at dramatisation)

2006-12-03T18:52:00.000+05:30

why the "firangi"craze?
I've always wanted to wear a long and elegent dress that flows down to your toes and narrates a story of its own with its lush colour and intriguing cut.You know, with the low back,low neck, low everything! Well tough luck!! ha ha.. You are indeed the nice, decent, well bred, religious Indian girl! Imagine the culture shock and the rift it might cause! A catastrophy of sorts! Good Lord! Ah well, there's always the mini skirt and the unbelievably short non-shirt. "WHAT??? Are you crazy?? Are you out of your mind? Do you have some sense??" is what i'll probably hear. Well, everyone is crazy in some whacky way. It's only how one perceives it. It's standard procedure in India to break the rules, so why the sudden mindset of scrutinizing a woman's clothing? I mean, does the world's existence depend on it? I think not.
In denfence of the 1 billion Indians (minus the whacky Indian girls)--Why the sudden infactuation with firangi style and fashion? A girl in a village in India with a "crazy" idea of style will indeed have to face the music from her parents after she's been humiliated by being gaped at by a bunch of jobless mongers with no apparent sense of decency. But you know what, if i wore a sari in another part of the world, where they have'nt had one glimpse of Indian clothing, i'd probably be stared at for quite some time too!
The sari is actally a very sensuous piece of garment. In certain places its outrageous for a woman to "expose" her mid-section. Um.. why is that? So.... what they're saying is that, their great great great great(and a lot more greats) grandmother, the first woman on earth was the most indecent and vulgar woman on earth. WOW.Now that is silly.
Maybe we're just tagging it.. "The firagi craze"I mean, anything new is exciting and hence the sudden craze. In a country like India, its bound to spread like wildfire. What's the crime in being adventureous and trying out a new thing or two?
I think restriction creates a spirit in you that makes you crave for something more. I mean, take a bollywood film. Guy meets girl, they fall in love, bla bla end of story. The much awaited kiss is left to our imagination. Because,its an outrage in India.Hush. No talking about love and mushy stuff. Why the restriction? Seems to me, the whole of India is love crazy because of the restriction. hmmm. Quite a thought. As for me, i remain the nice, decent, well bred, religious Indian girl. There are more important things on earth to fight over.

The prequel- My horse whisperer

2006-11-04T22:57:00.000+05:30

She walked towards him in defeat,
As though it was their fate, to meet;
He gently stroked her dusky mane,
He seemed to ease her of her pain.

He whispered songs of long ago,
He spoke of mountains i adore.
Oh, what longing i have in me!
To unbind myself and be free.

I'd chase the wind till i lose my breath,
I'd ride in the rain till i'm soaking wet,
I'd watch the creation of a new day,
I'd still be there to watch it slowly sink away.

His voice i hear amidst the pouring rain,
Softer than the light patter on my face,
Calling out to me not to stray,
My horse whisperer, my only way.

2006-11-02T21:59:00.000+05:30

Right now i'm into quite a few things! At one point in your life you have to do this

Listen to:
1. What a wonderful world-Louis Armstrong

(George Weiss / Bob Thiele)

I see trees of green, red roses too
I see them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world
I see skies of blue and clouds of white
The bright blessed day, the dark sacred night
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world

The colours of the rainbow, so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people going by
I see friends shakin' hands, sayin' "How do you do?"
They're really saying "I love you"
I hear babies cryin', I watch them grow
They'll learn much more than I'll ever know
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world
Yes, I think to myself, what a wonderful world
Oh yeah

Its the charm of the simple things in life that i'm still blown away by and i am yet to understand to hidden complexity in them.

2. Kiss from a rose-Seal

Another one of my favouraites. Absolutely beautiful lyrics and a very addictive song might i add! yea, i've heard the song about a zillion times and i'm not remotely bored of it as yet!

3. Zombie-Cranberries

There's something about this song that's so enigmatic and magnetic. A downright head banger and 5.12 minutes of gothic-ness.
A song to sing for kicks. You will not be disappointed. One bit.

To watch:
1. The Horse whisperer- The thing is i never expected anything but i got much more than i expected after watching it.

2. Finding Forrester- For all you aspiring writers, this is the movie to watch.

We all live on this Earth for a reason. There is someone out there who's life is waiting for you to be in it. In whatever small way, for whatever small reason you are indeed blessed to be there. I've always wondered about life. I've pondered about the why's and when's and how's a good number of times. And i've come to understand that even though i dont see it in the near future, God sees it real clear and he's got a plan. And it's my duty to trust and obey. Living by faith is what takes you to places you've never dreamt of, to opportunities you never thought yourself worthy of, to experiences you never thought you could live through. And thats the beauty of life.

My horse whisperer...

2006-10-17T18:52:00.000+05:30

I'm running, running, my swift body moves across,
My hooves make a depression on the dark desert sand.
I'm reaching for the horizon where things are anew,
Across the red desert sand I ride towards you.

I'm thinking, i'm feeling like a whole new being;
I'm filled with life with a whole new meaning.
My life is saved, yes i'm free again,
My horse whisperer, my saviour, my friend.

A song fills my mouth,a voice so clear,
What you've given me, is oh, so dear.
Even my might and grace can never surpass
The burning spirit in me so vast.

Oh, I could sing of all my battles won
My peaceful nights watching the setting sun.
When i carried you across hills and streams,
But you carried me beyond my very dreams!

Dark dangers i might come to see
But i will fight the storm until they flee
For i know, far across the distance,
Across the red desert sand
My horse whisperer, will guide me home.

-annette
i absoltely loved the movie.

Dont honey me..

2006-08-16T12:03:00.000+05:30

When the day is right,
And fate calls,
When darkness stumbles upon light,
Dont honey me.

When confusion meets you,
And takes you by the hand,
When lies seem so true,
Dont honey me.

When life brings you high,
And you're standing tall,
When pride brings a sigh,
Dont honey me.

When Snow White meets her happy ending,
She smiles a brilliant smile,
Stars, with joy, start descending,
Dont honey me.

It takes a lot of grey matter to bring down mine,
But cant you see,i've got God with me,
Somewhere between the dotted line,
Dont honey me.

Folly is what defies the mind,
And tries to make you succumb your all,
But you cannot lose what you've had before,
Dont honey me.

"All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players"
Play your part, Be yourself-
Dont honey me.

God's own country

2006-07-30T17:40:00.000+05:30

Kerala. I have been to kerala quite a few times and every time i come back home from my short vacation i long to have spent more time there. I took this picture when i went to kerala in june. I have these 'moments' when i totally zone out or rather zone into another world where nature unfolds her life to me. Every leaf has a story to tell and i find myself lost in thought every time.

The moment i saw this 'hole in the wall' i just knew there was something on the other side that i had to see for myself.
Beauty beyond my understanding. Thats what it is.

Wake up Lord, within me

2006-06-16T14:03:00.000+05:30

Wake up, Lord, i know You're within me,
I want to feel Your presence, whole and completely.
The world looks down on me, but i've got You by my side,
Under Your wings i'm prepared for life's ride.

Take me Lord, high above in life,
Teach me Lord, to live through the strife.
The light of Your presence is shining like a star,
I can now live through any danger, any scar.

When i'm being swallowed by my fears,
My Lord is fighting away my tears..
When i'm not strong enough to hold myself,
My Lord, puts me back on the right shelf.

I feel stronger by just knowing you,
Day by day, You guide me through..
I can't see where my life will lead me,
But my faith in You has set me free.

No more worries, no more misery,
I live for you Lord,yes, completely.
I thank you Lord for everything that you've given,
Yes, everything that i do, is now God-driven.

Oh, I tell you, the ride is heavenly,
With the clouds and the wind blowing approvingly.
I smile with my heart,oh, it feels so light,
I know deep within, everything's alright.

I ride with my Lord everyday,
Wake up Lord, within me, I say.

Divided thoughts..

2006-06-06T15:59:00.000+05:30

At first i laughed at the sarcasm portrayed,
Later, at my casual acceptance of the matter i was ashamed,
Now i realise i'm not the one who's dismayed...
Who is?

Mind of an anti-reservationist-->

Why God,are we divided when we are born?
Why God, are some looked upon with scorn?

At 3, i never cared whether my friends were OBC
With open arms i would have let them come to me.

At 18, i still feel the same..
Still there seems to be a nagging pain.
With my future on the line,
How can i not stand for what's mine?
I mean,i worked for it,i made everyone proud..
But yet,i did not make it through the crowd.
I've tagged myself as a failure
I'm lost in insecurity,depression and fear.
I thought i could make it big one day,
Now all my hopes are washed away..
After my breakdown,will there be a seat reserved for me?
For the mentally unstable,physically unwell & ill emotionally?
I'm so confused & i dont have the strength to fight,
Let the government do whatever they might!
Afterall someone loses out and it might as well be me,
I'm thinking-maybe this was'nt meant to be.
I know that i've had the best education i can ever get,
I know someone else's dreams of studying are now being met.
I'll move on,having faith in my education,
I' ll learn a new task without trepidation.
All i want to say is that all this concern for the OBC
is just making it convenient for them,according to me.
I can see that my loss is someone else's gain,
I guess i'll just become stronger after all the pain
I pray that God guides me through..
One day i'll rise up and be among you..

Mind of a pro-reservationist--

At 3,i was an OBC
At 18, i still am completely
I never had the platform to shine
How can i achieve something that was'nt regarded mine?
I am tagged from day 1
Limited for no reason under the sun..
I cant believe that it has to end this way,
For some-so that i can make my day.
You have no idea how much hope you've instilled in me.
I can even see myself earning for my family..
Although i feel that stealing your dream is a crime,
I'm not going to waste a second of my time.
I promise that i 'll work harder than you ever did,
I promise to educate every OBC kid
I will make sure that my caste is not an excuse
For my kids to take advantage of, and misuse.
I know
it must have been very tough for you,
I respect your anger,i really do.
I hope we will get this resolved one day,
For that to happen all i can say
Is that you have given me a future,a life, a dream..
Both of us together can make a good team.

Everyone needs a helping hand,
Something i have learnt to understand.

Reservation for OBC?

2006-06-06T15:54:00.000+05:30

I was reading this magazine and i came across this slogan-
I hope you know about the government reserving 27 % seats for the OBC..or more!

"Dear pro-reservationists,politicians,police...
Kabhi na kabhi you have to come to us.
We have RESERVED the bluntest knives and the thickest needles for you."

A slogan that brings out the ugliness of anger.

Fire in her eyes..

2006-04-14T17:05:00.000+05:30

Inspired by the photograph taken by my friend sharadha

She's an angel, calling out to me,
She's your tomorrow,waiting to be..
She told me my eyes can never hide
The things that i really feel inside..

She told me life will be a blur
If you close your heart and choose to fear..
She said she's seen times of peace,
Times of compassion, love and ease.

She says those times are passing by,
The things she sees, makes her cry.
She's seeing times when there is no care,
She's seeing things she cannot bear..

She tries to hide all the abuse,
Her eyes give it away,there's nothing left to choose..
She forgets to love, she doesnt wanna cry,
She doesnt wanna just let it go by..

She's stronger than ever, she's got reason to be,
But still, you can feel her pain, her deep misery,
Through her eyes its all too plain,
Nothing can remove that deep dark stain..
She deserves a lot more than this,
She deserves a world of infinite bliss..

After all that she's been through.....
She still brings a smile when she's around you.

Life has brought fire in her eyes,
You've got to respect the fire in her eyes.

Thinking of you..

2006-04-14T00:02:00.000+05:30

Falling asleep on an average day,
I'm reminded of you in every way...
My heart's telling me to smile,
To quit being in denial..

Of all the words that you have said,
I wanna hear you breathe instead..
I wanna see it in your eyes,
I wanna make me realise,

Love is unpredictable and meant to reveal,
All these emotions that i feel.

WORDS can heal

2006-04-13T23:54:00.000+05:30

Inspired by a photograph taken by Akash

Your world seems to be so clear,
You seem to live in no fear,
But inside you 're so insecure..
How much more can you endure??

Life is 'nt all about covering up,
Of being afraid and shuting up.
Its not about how long you can hold on
Its about knowing how to carry on..

Sometimes you need to let yourself fall,
There could be a whole new world beneath it all..
WORDS can open up your mind
It'll reveal what you wanted to find

Then you'll see the LIGHT you never saw before
And you'll understand what you' ve been living for..
And that day you'll make your own mark
There will be no more of DARK

Everyone has a reason to live,
We' re born to love, forget and forgive.
We' re here to find our missing link
The reason for which we' ll never sink.
That something or someone will teach you to love again,
That its ok to feel the pain...

Life brings out rebellions in us,
But is it really worth all the fuss??
If you think what you're doing is wrong,
WHAT are you waiting for so long??
If you 're worried about what people will think,
Atleast do it for your missing link
'Cos you dont need to go astray
Just 'cos people dont think your way

You have a persona of your own
No one is like you, you have the first turn.
So all you have to do is uncover yourself
And take full control of your life.

Time freeze

2006-04-13T23:46:00.000+05:30

Time goes by and by,
Familiarity touches you and i,
Behind high walls i do hide,
And with you i fail to confide.
Our paths meet just by fate,
Time stops and tends to wait,
There's a need to share, care and protect,
Soul to soul we connect,
Nothing surpasses this time freeze
When millions of seconds of time release...
Words seem to never come out,
Only you know what i'm thinking about.
At the crossroad, you look at me,
I look at you but i'm afraid to see,
Will you go left or will you go right,
Will you go forward and hold me tight...
Tell me the world with your heart beat,
Only with you i feel complete..

Devil Boss Little

2006-04-13T23:40:00.000+05:30

This poem is about a criminal(Devil Boss Little) who was a great boss but not a leader... he made all the wrong choices.. did 'nt realise the worth of life until it was too late... we all have something t learn from this..(everything in the poem is made up and is not real in any way)-annette

Mr. Boss was firm and strong,
According to him, he did nothing wrong,
He shot some men and stabbed the rest,
Drank the night at his best,
All for fame, power and pelf,
All for money,money and self.
He was the boss of him, you and me,
But it was too late for him to see
That cops were friends of the society.
Well all is lost, even his wife,What 's the use of living a life?
They say he is promised the electric chair,
And he wonders if life was ever fair..
Where he had made the first flaw,
The first time he broke the law.
His soul never did find peace..
But victims of his crime were at last at ease.
He never was a leader, always a boss.
He made the wrong choices and all for loss.
So are you a leader or a boss?
Will you wither with time or gather like moss?
Is 'nt life for living and not for death?
For leading others out of the net?
So choose the right thing to do..
And find the right leader in you..

Nature's will

2006-04-13T23:34:00.000+05:30

The gushing wind, the dancing seas,
The groaning earth, the gentle breeze,
The crying clouds, the dark blue mounds,
The setting sun, the beauty won,
The soaring trees, for that one piece
Of soothing ease..

But nature burns..
And beauty turns,

To misty ash, but still
It's Nature 's Will,
With a little help,From personified skill.

-annette
by personified skill i mean human skill...that is.. how man is also responsible indirectly for the destruction of nature..by deforestation, pollution.If we are good t nature and it will be good t us... enjoy nature... it has a lot t offer. There 's beauty everywhere... take a moment t realise that.

WAr and ?

2006-04-13T23:29:00.000+05:30

this is something i came up with a year back i think.... just my thoughts

Staying awake at night i think
Of thoughts that pestered my mind all day long
Why everything always ends up in war..
Why dont people understand that its wrong??
How many deaths must we bear
To realise that there are no more lives to spare??
Surrounding each nation,each race, each life,
Why is there so much of strife?
With people dying everywhere
Why is it that people just dont care?
When will i see life so clear?
When will i hav no reason to fear?
Does God have no say in this?
How can we in the midst of war, miss
His grace and mercy, His love supreme?
His permission to fulfil our dream?
All we can do is pray for peace...
For all the hatred to slowly cease..

Showers of love..

2006-04-13T23:25:00.000+05:30

I stretch out my arms and close my eyes,
I tilt my head towards the moonlit skies,
I feel raindrops falling down on me,
I open my eyes and that 's all i see.
Beauty personified, from heaven above,
Angels cry out showers of love.
The moment it touches me i feel alive,
I feel that this is all i need to survive..
It brings a smile on my face,
And evokes an emotion that's hard to erase.
So sublte and yet so strong,
Willing to fall down, all along.

Intoxicated

2006-04-13T23:20:00.000+05:30

Down the dark, dark alley, i fall on my knees,
My life's zeroed to nothing, How did it suddenly cease..
I see images of long,long,long before,
Intoxication. Yeah. I'm craving for more.
I hear voices calling,it's all in a blur,
And i'm falling, falling, falling on dirt.
Got my emotions on high, but none that i can see,
It's all in my head, like it was meant to be.
The only thing alive is craving for peace..
That's my heart, and i'm begging it " please,
I feel confusion,delusion,keep me from losin,
My mind, my soul, I feel my life's on hold.
I dont want this frustrating life..
Why did i not see through all of his lies?
Look where it got me..now i realise,
That i should look twice for defying eyes."

Forgot my password!

2006-04-13T23:14:00.000+05:30

hey.. um..so it had been a while since i had posted anything on my blog 'Time freeze'
not surprising that i forgot my passworh ha ha!No fear...:) so i created this one!